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Post by Deleted on Jun 30, 2014 18:33:25 GMT -5
The white and scarlet tom almost didn't hear his mate. He heard the tail end of her comment fully, "Huh..." Then saw the look on her face and quickly added "Nothing, I'm just wondering what they have found out since we've been home.." It was more then that, he was a failure. He got beaten up...he was one of the largest toms in the yard and a good fighter. Yet, he was taken down and Jelly was taken. And who knew what happened to Tugger and Tantomile.
Plato glanced back at his mate and forced a smile, "I'm not usually on this end of the problems. I am usually carrying someone in my position out." His expression went a bit more serious as his eyes wandered away towards the steaming liquid in his cup. "I just don't know where I went wrong. I play it over and over and I don't know if I could have fought differently..." He said remembering the large and smaller black tom that bested him.
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Post by ShirQuickpaw on Jul 25, 2014 18:10:41 GMT -5
Quickpaw listened to Plato's explanation, still holding her cup of tea in front of her. Her face mirrored her own emotions at his words and when he had finished she prolonged the silence to sip on her tea. Then her face got an determined expression, almost a scowl you would usually find on Jellylorum's face when she was huffing in exasperation. she put the cup aside and knelled before her sitting mate, so their heads were at the same height. Then she took his hands in hers and looked him straight into the eyes.
"My love? I want you to listen to me now. You didn't go wrong. It was not your fault."
Her hands reached up from his hands to his cheek and held his head firm , while she leaned forward and kissed him somewhat fiercely. Then she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and rested her head against his shoulders.
"I want you to stop thinking that way. If every time you try to find a different approach you get the same result, that result was inevitable. Then it was beyond your powers to change the outcome."
Again she leaned back to really look him into the eyes.
"You are alive! You might have experienced a set-back. But you are alive!. Alive to try again, this time with support. Alive to free the others, if you must. Aunt Jelly isn't as helpless as you might think. Do you really think anyone could keep her or Aunt Jenny for any length of time against their wills? I don't and will never believe that. Those two became somewhat my surrogate mothers when I came to the junkyard. I know them! I know Aunt Jelly will find a way to escape. Tugger is as much a fighter as you if he needs to be and the Lady Tantomile? I doubt anyone would dare to touch her. She has an aura about her that just keeps anyone away she doesn't want close."
Quickpaw rested her head against his forehead.
"You are alive, whole and free to try another day if needed. It wasn't your fault. ... It wasn't your fault ... It wasn't your fault."
She kept repeating it over and over again like a mantra.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 30, 2014 18:27:19 GMT -5
Plato appreciated her encouragement. Though he still felt inadequate he only took her in his arms and held her to him. Tears stung his eyes but he blinked them away before she could see them. He was hurting, not just physically, but mentally. He took a breath and drew back to see her face. "I'm sure you are right Quick, but I am going to have a hard time seeing it right now" Plato's bass rumbled softly.
"I have never failed like this before. And its affecting everything and everyone." His eyes were somewhat darker then usual. Plato felt an old fire build up inside him. An old anger. Almost like the one he faced when he almost knocked Tugger's teeth out. He suppressed it. He had always had trouble with his anger. Many have seen his outbursts. They seemed to stop when Quickpaw came to the yard, or were they just buried? His recent failure had brought up old hatred for himself. He also knew he could never live with himself if he hurt Quick in one of his boughts of rage. He shook his thoughts away and looked at her, "I will try to remember what you said but that is really all I can promise right now" He said softly and nestled his face into her neck.
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Post by ShirQuickpaw on Jul 30, 2014 19:12:19 GMT -5
Quickpaw continued to hold her love close as his last words echoed in her mind. She could live with that for the moment. She would have been more worried in a way, when he had just accepted everything. But there was one thing, that still left a sore taste in her mouth. What had he said? "He had never failed like this before and that effects everything and everyone?". Again that expression of exasperation she had learned from her Aunt Jellylorum ghosted over her face. How often had she failed in her tasks because she had been unable to walk on a flat surface. How often had she ruined a work with Aunt Jenny in the healer's den, when she had been clumsy again.
"Love? Do you remember what the other kittens used to call me a lot of the time?"
Quickpaw leaned back again to look him into the face with a rueful smile on her lips.
"I am sure you remember that thy called me Clumsypaw more then once and they were right. Do you think I can count how often I failed in something I should have done right? How often I stumbled on a flat surface so that like those domino stones I knocked everyone over while were rehearsing for the dances of the Jellicle Ball? Or how often I have failed in completing a task for Aunt Jenny, because I had two left hands in that moment?"
Again she runs a very soft caress over his cheek.
"Please, our failures hurt, I agree ยด, but they don't affect everything or everyone. Mostly they affect only us and how we see oneself. I had to learn the long hard way, that I still can be one of the kitten's caretakers, that I can still be one of Jenny's helpers regardless how clumsy I am. I am sure you will learn, that you don't have to be perfect, that you just need to be yourself and do your best."
Another soft kiss from her to his muzzle
"And you will always be the best in my eyes, because you are mine and I love you."
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Post by Deleted on Sept 5, 2014 20:55:08 GMT -5
Plato only put on a forced smile and accepted the hug from his mate. This was not getting Jenny's herbs rights, or bumping dominos. This was Jelly's life at stake. He failed as a guardian. He failed Jelly. He could not take anymore of his mates reassurances. He did not deserve them. So he did the next best thing, he buried his emotions and played out her words. "You are right my love. " He said over her shoulder. "There is time, I can make this right. Thank you" He said softly in her ear. His dark scarlet eyes stared over her shoulder in silent anguish. He could spare her his failure. He could spare he his anger for himself. He was luck she was even in his life.
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Post by ShirQuickpaw on Oct 17, 2014 3:24:45 GMT -5
Quickpaw felt an eyebrow rising with Plato's words. <What would he mean with "There is time. I can make this right."?> She didn't like the implication of these words, but she buried her continued worries for the nonce. She would just need to keep a closer eye on him the next days. Wouldn't be more difficult then watching an errant kitten, that wanted to get into trouble. That at least she told herself while she continued to hug her mate.
"So, dear, what do you like or need to do today. With your ribs still tender there won't be that much in sense of duty, but I am sure you still have plans for today. I need to have a short visit with Jenny and see what she needs me to do, but other than that I am free for whatever you would like or need me for."
She beamed a carefree smile at him.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 27, 2014 21:22:25 GMT -5
Plato listened to her muddle on and could not help but smile. He had to even stifle a chuckle at her. Only because he knew it would hurt his ribs. "I could accompany you if you would like?" He offered. He really had not much of a chance to be around his new mate because of his duties and recent issues at Macavity's warehouse. Plato admired how happy Quickpaw seemed to be. She was so bubbly and full of light. What the hell was she doing with him? He could not even try to answer the question.
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Post by ShirQuickpaw on Nov 22, 2014 18:06:50 GMT -5
Quickpaw nuzzled Plato lovingly.
"You would do that? I would love to have you along..."
<That gives me much better opportunity to keep an eye on him.>, she told herself, still grinning carefree at her tom.
"It might be quiet boring for you, I am afraid."
An impish grin formed on her muzzle.
"But it will give me a chance to show you off, you know. I want all to know that we are together."
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Post by Moonstruck on Jan 10, 2015 21:07:44 GMT -5
[[With Vipurr having left the board I am going to declare this thread DEAD]]
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